I know you don't see me anymore
Twisted thoughts of the past
Went through some things
People just change
You used to believe
I was just innocent, lonely, naive
But that's no longer me
I don't need you
I'm blocking out your words
All they do is tear
And I've too many scars from all the time before
I'm not doing this anymore
This place is still the same
Clouded and caving in
I wasn't meant to stay
There are things I gotta do
Written on January 28, 2004
Hands wrapped so tightly
Suffocating
I can't breathe
But laugh 'cause the joke is on me
Say I should've known
And nothing could've prepared me
So now I leave
Slowly slipping
Feel my balance tilting
Forward and back
Which way do I go?
But gravity has chosen
I can only scream
'Cause no one is catching me
I'm falling
Painful clear streams
I look up, then down
It hurts too bad to see
And they trickle out
But nothing is fixed and everything is broken
Super glue doesn't mend feelings
And water doesn't wash them clean
Eyes closed
Just where did my happy place go?
All I hear are words
They mean nothing
Only scar
I just don't know
How did I make it this far?
Suffocating
I can't breathe
But laugh 'cause the joke is on me
Say I should've known
And nothing could've prepared me
So now I leave
Slowly slipping
Feel my balance tilting
Forward and back
Which way do I go?
But gravity has chosen
I can only scream
'Cause no one is catching me
I'm falling
Painful clear streams
I look up, then down
It hurts too bad to see
And they trickle out
But nothing is fixed and everything is broken
Super glue doesn't mend feelings
And water doesn't wash them clean
Eyes closed
Just where did my happy place go?
All I hear are words
They mean nothing
Only scar
I just don't know
How did I make it this far?