"Fear"
I am the concrete lump in your throat
The one you try to swallow
I am the fist against your stomach
The inital thought of "What did I do?"
I am the desperate feeling
The kick that leaves you scrambling for a reason
I creep in fast
Coating like a fog
Hanging around until you find your tongue
Waiting for you to make me dissipate
I am the reason you hide
Try to shake me off
To pretend that you aren't scared
Still I cling to your thoughts
They are my oxygen
Like a parasite you are my host
I only live if you let me
"Almost Forgotten"
Straight through your eyes
I see the lies
Watch you scramble for words
I'm not sure if you know
I don't want it hear it anymore
You can keep your false affection
It was like an infection
The healing process has started
You are almost forgotten
But every time I close my eyes I can still see your face
"Shark"
A flash of white daggers
Crimson mouth smiling at me
"Swim as fast as you can," it taunted
The shark's beady, black eyes staring at me
Its slippery, steel body gliding through the water
I couldn't scream
There was water all around me
Flailing arms and kicking feet, but I wasn't moving and neither was he
Trying to get away from fear
Then I stopped and stared
The animal stared back, closing its mouth and turned
Leaving me
"Leaving"
I remember leaving
the chill of winter
the dark of the night
tearing down the posters on my wall
the soft light in the hall
the confusion i felt
the fear lodged in my gut
stuffing my clothes in a suitcase
staring at the bare room
listening to the sound of crying
worrying about leaving my brother behind
looking at my mother say it'd be all right
thinking I didn't believe it would
walking out the front door
the cold glass against my palm
the sound of the car door shutting
the look of the house as Mom backed away
the desperate, sinking feeling as we left
There was water all around me
Flailing arms and kicking feet, but I wasn't moving and neither was he
Trying to get away from fear
Then I stopped and stared
The animal stared back, closing its mouth and turned
Leaving me
"Leaving"
I remember leaving
the chill of winter
the dark of the night
tearing down the posters on my wall
the soft light in the hall
the confusion i felt
the fear lodged in my gut
stuffing my clothes in a suitcase
staring at the bare room
listening to the sound of crying
worrying about leaving my brother behind
looking at my mother say it'd be all right
thinking I didn't believe it would
walking out the front door
the cold glass against my palm
the sound of the car door shutting
the look of the house as Mom backed away
the desperate, sinking feeling as we left